Veronica Lynn Interview

Veronica is a 5'2" asian military brat. Most of her family is in the military. And they don't do porn.

She calls me Thursday afternoon, November 18, 2004. She speaks rapidly.

"When I was a kid, I wanted to be so many things. At first, I wanted to be a doctor. I told everybody. My parents are really strict [Roman Catholics]. They were supportive of everything, but basically of the things they wanted me to be. They tried to scare me out of being a doctor.

"I graduated [at age 20] from San Diego State University with my bachelors in law and criminal studies with an emphasis in forensic technology.

"My parents wanted me to go into the military. They wanted me to be a medical coreman. That's what my sister is [in the Navy]. Everybody is proud of my sister.

"I wouldn't say I'm the black sheep of the family. Everybody loves me."

You are the black sheep of the family. Come on. You're a porn star.

"True. My mom freaked when she found out.

"I'm the youngest of six children. Everybody is doing all these professional things. They were proud of me after I got my bachelors but after that, dude, this sucks. This is so boring. I am not going to be stuck behind a desk job. This is gay.

"I went to school to study to become a district attorney. I had no passion for it. I knew that I loved partying. I loved guys. One day [in April] I was at the beach hanging out with my friends, and these people were putting out fliers for adult-oriented stuff. I threw it away.

"The next day, I was reading the newspaper. I needed to find a job. I saw the same ad with the same number. I called the number. Set up the interview [with Monarch Models] and here I am.

"Monarch promised me all these good things. They fed me the whole line. I didn't know any better. I was so excited. They moved me out of my house to LA. My first scene was for Will Hansen's company [who owns Monarch]. A boy-girl for $500. I could've gotten so much more money.

"At first, Tiva, who left LA Direct Models, ran it. Will is supposed to be the financial backer, but really, he runs it. Everybody says it is a woman-run company. That's crap. We girls were treated so badly. They get upset with you in such a slick way that you feel like you're the one in the wrong.

"They don't know how to treat their girls properly. That's why they've got the most ridiculous website I've ever seen. I was their first girl. They had just started their agency. Keri Sable and I were their prime bank. When we left (Veronica left after three months), they blamed Tiva and they said they fired her.

"They wouldn't take Keri Sable off their website. Companies would call and want to book her. They wouldn't say she was not with them anymore. They'd say she's currently unavailable. They tried to steal my paycheck. Thank God the director had my phone number and thought it was fishy. They verbally abused us.

"The current manager of the company is Maria Menendez. She's younger than me. When she came in, she didn't know jack about the porn industry (except what she learned as the assistant buyer at the Hustler store in San Diego).

"We took her to a shoot. She sees these porn stars that she likes. We see Hustler and Clive McLean. She's starstruck. She embarrassed us. Keri and I left the room.

"Now I'm on my own. I'm not with an agency anymore. When I went on my Tera Patrick shoot, I met a lot of other asian girls. I've been taught how to do it on my own."

From a Filipino, Japanese and Brazilian heritage, Veronica Lynn has appeared in about 50 movies. She measures 34B-24-34.

"I'm a freaky bitch. I like meeting new people. What I don't like is that there's so much gossip. So many bad things that go on. Things get shady. Girls get ripped off."

What are your ambitions?

"I want to be big. I want people to watch my porn and be like, oh, she's really energetic. I want people to get off on it. I want them to see how much fun I'm having.

"I'll be walking down the street and a guy will, oh, I just watched your video. I get fan emails. One guy wrote to me, me and my friend want to know if you want to 'hang out.' As in, do a threesome.

"Just because you're a porn star doesn't mean you are going to f--- everybody around you. Business and personal life are two separate things.

"Escorts are not hookers. I could never do it because I have safety issues. Heidi Fleiss wasn't sending her girls to broke-down people. She was sending girls to Italy for two days and getting $500,000."

How is your family handling your new career?

"My mom freaked out. She had about three heartattacks. I came home to visit. I had a copy of AVN in my suitcase. I had told that I was working as a model.

"My mom likes to snoop through my things. She found it. She read it. She found one of my movies. It was an ad. There's my picture with some other girls on the boxcover in full glory. I come home and my mom has it spread out on the coffee table. She was sitting at home for hours waiting for me to get home.

"My mom says, 'Do you have an explanation for this?' My mom speaks in Tagalog [the Filipino language], so everything she says is a lot worse than English. She's going to curse me out until I die. She yelled at me for six hours, calling me so many names. She says, 'We're going to the doctor's tomorrow and get you tested.'

"Then she called my whole family in front of me. During the six hours, she turned on the speaker phone and called my family. She called my sister, who yelled at me for an hour. Then she said, let me threeway your grandmother.

"She saved the best for last. She called my dad. My dad almost flew his ass down from [the state of] Washington to San Diego to beat my ass.

"Throughout the whole yelling, I just nodded my head. I knew that if I said anything, my mom would just flip out.

"She says I shamed the family.

"When we went to the doctor, she said, 'My daughter is a whore. She's been doing pornographic movies in Los Angeles and I want to see if she is dirty.'

"My mom's crazy. Before she found out, after I'd moved up to LA, she'd cut out articles in the newspaper about how dangerous LA was and mail them to me.

"When the whole AIDS thing broke out, she said, do you know there are so many people there with AIDS? Cover your mouth when people cough."

She hasn't seen any of your work?

"She refuses to look. I'll say, mom, look how pretty I look on the pretty girls. She's like, that's what whores do. You're going to hell.

"She reminds me every day that I'm going to hell.

"When I found out I was on the cover of the October 2004 AVN magazine, I drove down to the Hustler store in San Diego to pick it up. There were 30 dudes in there. They all started looking at me. Ten of them had my video in hand. They wanted me to sign it. Some of them followed me to my car.

"My fan mail is funny. It's like reading a comic book joke every day. I get fans writing, are you going to do anal? You'd be the coolest chick if you did anal.

"I don't know how these fans find out personal information about you but they do.

"I went to school with the some of the biggest whores. We have a lot of freaky girls here in San Diego. In the future, I may want to start my own agency."

Would you prefer to date someone inside or outside the industry?

"Outside. I can not be porn 24/7. I have to have separation. And there's so much gossip in porn. I went to a birthday party. I went with my agent and Jean Valjean, who lived with us. I took Craven Morehead. We were hanging out. His ex-girlfriend and his ex-wife all saw us and the next thing I hear is that I'm hooking up with Craven.

"Jean Valjean is obsessed with Britney Skye. We called him on the cell phone. Guess who's here? Britney Skye. She's totally naked in the jacuzzi. I put Keri on the phone [as Britney]. 'Hi Jean, I'm in the pool naked. I'm waiting for you.' He says, 'I must come now.'

"He was so excited. When he came, he got so pissed off at us that she wasn't there.

"He has an obsession with McDonalds. We go to the drive-thru. He goes, 'Can I have the Happy Meal with the little puppet?'

"He's 25 and he's ordering a Happy Meal.

"When we go to the window to pay, he says, 'Where is the clown who gives the hamburgers to all the little kids? You see the mother------ on TV all the time but when you drive through, the mother------ is never there.'

"He didn't wash his clothes in three weeks. We had to hire a maid to clean it because he refused to clean it himself. The smell from his bedroom was creeping throughout the house. Tiva and I had to constantly light candles and incense to keep the living room smelling good. We had to constantly shut his door.

"I want to make movies as long as I possibly can because I am just having way too much fun. I meet the coolest people, like DVSX director Alex Ladd. We do South Park marathons together. We'll watch until we fall asleep.

"My fetish is accents. My favorite one is Australian.

"I grew up as a tomboy. My father treated me as a boy. When he talks to me on the phone now, he doesn't talk to me the same as he used to. It makes me sad. He'll ask, how was your day? I will say, dad, you don't want to know about my day. He says, no, I want to know. Ok. I did this scene with this guy... OK, I don't want to know. I'll call you later.

"We can't have the conversations we used to have. He's learned not to ask how my day went unless I didn't have a shoot that day."

Veronia has three older sisters and two older brothers.

"I'm obsessed with reading books. I bring them to shoots with me. I just finished Heidi Fleiss's pandering book.

"I've always been freaky, but since porn, I've come more out of my shell. I've unleashed a different part of myself that I had never seen before.

"I got married when I was 18. It lasted two years. He was a Marine. I love Marines. I love men in uniform. I fell for him. I thought he was so sweet. When we got married, he was a bad husband. He didn't think he had to pay attention to me anymore.

"On one of my movies, in the behind-the-scenes, they caught Keri and I talking about my ex-husband. We've been on-and-off since the divorce. He's going to Iraq for a year."

Veronica does not believe that we can turn Iraq into a functioning democracy.

"I don't want to have children until I am way older.

"What accent do you have?"

Australian.

"Oh. When I first heard you, I was like, ohh, this will be fun. Here we go. This is really sexy."

Veronica was born in the Phillipines and came to California at age six. She didn't know a word of English. "There were little white girls playing outside. I went outside and spoke to them in my language. They said, ohmigod, alien. They screamed and ran away from me.

"I went inside crying. I was traumatized. I worked hard to lose my accent.

"My mother called my cousins in the Phillipines and told them I was doing porn. She called my ex-husband. He already knew. She said, 'Did you know [Veronica] is a whore. That she's in porn.' He tried to lie. She could tell.

"If people are kissing on TV and we're watching, she'll change the channel. I'll say, mom, I was watching that. She'll say, you do enough watching on your own time.

"She likes to find ways to rub it into my face.

"She'll go online and find statistics. Did you know that porn stars die earlier than everybody else? Mom, where did you read that? Online. Mom, don't go online. She'll say, I'm going to read up more and win this debate. You'll see. You're going to hell.

"She came up to me with statistics about what states buy what kind of porn. This country is disgusting. Do you know what state buys the most sh---ing and peeing-on-people and tranny videos? Texas. You better not be doing any of those kind of videos.

"Mom, I'm not doing any of those kind of videos. I'm not a tranny. I will never s--- on people on video. She'll go, I don't believe you.

"We do have good times. We'll laugh and stuff. Then she'll stop the laughter. I can't be laughing with you. You disgraced the family. I'm mad at you.

"When my mom told my aunt, my aunt called and goes, what's porn like?

"My mom's ok with it now but she still calls me a whore every five seconds. We've found a common ground. I'm an adult. She can't do anything about it. I won't do the sh---ing and peeing on people videos. We won't talk about it. We're going to pretend I don't do it all.

"She'll read me Proverbs at night. I'll be trying to go to bed. I'll be sleeping. She'll come into my room in the middle of the night and turn on all the lights and read the Bible to me.

"I'll say, mom, do you know what time it is? She'll say, there is no time when it comes to reading from the Bible. God does not care about time. You should have time for Jesus all the time.

"She drives me to church when I visit her. She makes me sit in the front. She doesn't tell me I'm a whore at church. You're not allowed to say that.

"She goes into the confessionals and tells all the priests what her daughter does. I think Catholic priests are all perverts because they started giving me some looks. I've known them for a long time.

"I'll go to confession. I know their voices. I can just hear the dirty tone in their voice when I talk to them. I'll talk about my porn work. They'll go, so, what was it like? I don't get into descriptive stuff because the tone in their voice freaks me out. It's like they're jerking off in the other side of the cubicle.

"I'll tell them how many scenes I did that week and that I don't regret it and that I had fun.

"I'll ask my mom, why are we sitting in front? She'll say, so Jesus can see you better. And you can see Jesus better.

"She listens in on my confessionals. She stands by the door. She puts her ear on there. She'll open it. Sometimes she'll sit in there with me. I'll say, you're not allowed to be in here with me. She'll say, I'm your mother. I'm allowed to do anything.

"I will never treat my child like that.

"She tells her friends at work that her daughter is a porn star. She doesn't know what to do. She's failed me."